like after quite a longlong while... feeling kinda EMOFIED now. no idea why also ): i need something/someone/anything to cheer myself up now!!! ): i miss my sister ):
SIGH!!!!
i wish i didnt have to work so hard. i wish i was able to spend more time at home. i wish i was able to have fun with my sister while she was still here. and now i'm missing her from 11hours flight away.
i wish i was more concerned. i wish i was there. i wish i was able to do more than juz standing by unnoticed and ignorant. i wish i had that closer bonding to be trusted as a confidant. and now i know whatever i say or do would juz fall to the ground.
i wish i was able to go to school for trainings. i miss school. i miss my friends in school. i want to hang out more. now i wish i could have more than one of me that i can do more things at one time.
there were so many things happening recently. suddenly i just feel like taking a longlong sleep and never wake up.
it's mind boggling. i know i need to seek help from above. but.. i really dunno!! ): push and pulls.
SIGH!!
life sometimes can be really shocking at times. unexpected all the time. well congrats to ben and melly for being romantically attached! (: baha it'll always take a little getting used to it. waha! shall wish them well. i was suddenly pondering about it. how so would army really put a relationship to the test? time? effort? deprivation? why do people always end up in breakups during the army period.? or am i stereotyping. well i hope we should all break out of that mindset. and yes, i'm believing that relationships strong enough will stand the test of army.
thanks for the quote of longlongago. happiness is yours to control. that i'm believing always and ever.
roar ):
i cant wait for surf and sweat. my darling beloved fishy you better come out of camp okay!! if not i wont have any fishy to swim that 400m for me!!! sigh!! GO TEAM FIER :p
i so need to run and EXERCISE!!! i know i didnt say this, but ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I FRIGGING GAINED 3KGS SINCE I STARTED WORK!!! i can feel the excess i'm so very sure. ): like wad the DOF just said. i haven been working very long but it sure did feel like AGES and EONs ago.
sidetracking, had fun at our track gathering on saturday. mr tang was funny as usual. realised how much i missed that bunch of people and the times we spent. cant wait for our outing on CNY day3 night!! i hipe i'll be able to make it though. bleh.
jun's house and woah. her nephews are so naughty but they're cute. didnt stay over at jun's. in the end we left too late. while jud and jon caught their last bus, i missed my last bus by 20whole mins. cabbed home and blessed the uncle with $1.50 since i told him to keep the change. i wish i stay nearer in the east. but nvm i love my house.
thanks joseph for the lunch treat on sunday.!! you know what? baha! i kinda miss the good old times. like kinda reminiscing the past. sigh. maybe i should really stop tinking. it's bleak. i need to spice up my life. seriously.
welcome to the new year. well erm it's a kinda late welcome but oh well (: WELCOME TO 2008!!
other than having to start paying adult fare while travelling which costs like 98765432120 bucks, life since 2008 began was WAY COOL (: hanging out with you bunch of friends really rocks my life (: i'm sad i didnt discover it earlier. but i hope it's not too late!! esp when you guys are heading to the greens and deep deep into the woods on a island far far away soon!!! ): i'm going to miss you guys!!! so we need to hang out more on weekends whenever you guys get to book out alrighty!! dt, yaoyao, ken, lili(chuan) (: call us girls okay!! i promise to make time out for you guys (: i promise i'll never forget you guys, jon jud shu rae too!! (: LOVES!! (:!
well first day of the year was cool hanging out again. camwhored a little not much. countdowned down in our own special way :D together with night walks and 'slumberparties' :p
after first day of the year we have the second day. *DUH* 05/06 chalet!!! :D well i turned up on wed night. we didnt mambo as we wanted to ): but nvm, chalet-ing was still alright. pity i didnt stay that night cuz most of the peeps turned up that day!!!! ):<>and oh!!! i became a maid. GEEX!! but i love my hairstyle okay!! :p at least i have to x) oh and if you're wondering, i cut my hair. yeah. short :p after cracking nuts we got hungry. walked to pasir ris central for supper bought some drinks, went nuts at the busstop den headed back to chalet. played crazy bluff with 2deck of cards and went to sleep!!!! WAHA! and i sleeptalked. according to dt. i should have said more.. maybe like I'M GOING TO KILL YOU DARYL or smth. :D woke up early the next morning, dt and ken volunteered their service and walked me to interchange (: thanks guys! (: went to work and seriously died. bleh.
and there was inter-jc pagaent!! :D well erm i didnt reach there to see the performance and everything. was there late cuz i was having fun hanging out with lynnette since like 6351374years ago x) it was FUN and worth the time! (: haha!! anyways i was still there in time to find out who won!! x) congrats to pris for getting 2nd and graham for his 3rd! (: it's not easy to make it so far, so well done!! (:
hanged around with jud the rest of the night. it rocked. (: thanks jud for the company and for asking me to go!! (: and thanks jon for keeping me safe and for your company as well, you emo boy :p saw bentay there with clement and some army friends. haha!! it's been long since i last saw them already. haha they still look the same. but i still dunno why i really didnt see ben when he walked past jud and i while we were stupidly waiting for the bag deposit ppl. x) SORRY! x) but i guess i had a great night. i yearn for more. if you need a buddy i'll be there if i'm free (: call me! but not too often la. money doesnt come by easily.
and did i say? i received my pay!! but they wrote my name wrongly. i cannot cash in that stupid cheque!! AH! since when was my name nataTlia. goodness. x) i guess that's all for now!! (: i've got lotsa catching up to do with peeps like ARVINTANG and the other track peeps!! (: why do our track gatherings always get postponed?! ah! oh well!! we need to meet up soon! (:
and oh yeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDPA! (: my real grandpa (:
"Remember, happiness doesn't depend upon who you are or what you have. It depends solely upon what you think."
— Dale Carnegie
Most people don't believe it, but it really is possible to think yourself happy. You start with one happy thought
followed by another and another until pretty soon you're stacking them on top of each other, like layers of joy
bricks. After awhile, you will have built such a solid wall of happy thoughts around yourself that wherever you go,
you'll radiate joy. And all because one day you made the decision that no matter what, you were going to think a
happy thought.